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Across
  1. 3. ideal knitting yarn
  2. 4. canon's favorite flavor of puzzles
  3. 6. only thing allowed in my coffee
  4. 8. my mothers name
  5. 9. my moon sign
  6. 11. partner in crime
  7. 12. first diagnosis
  8. 15. diagnosis #3 in which one is incapable of leaving their home due to the likelihood of panic attacks
  9. 16. the best month
  10. 19. Washington pit in which myself and Benjamin Gibbard grew up
  11. 21. they're real
  12. 23. the king of horror
  13. 27. a neighborhood full of apple trees, tall hemlocks, dense forest, and rabid raccoons
  14. 30. favorite book
  15. 31. a brave and fierce girl and also the name of the bong resting on my table
  16. 34. how you feel after being in college for four years straight
  17. 35. water substitute
  18. 36. the substance that will kill me according to my father if I inject it into my veins
  19. 38. heaven is a hole in the sky the stars are cracks in the ceiling of night
  20. 40. how I felt when my father yelled at me on the beach
  21. 42. most commonly used username
Down
  1. 1. tattoo on right arm
  2. 2. favorite way to drink coffee
  3. 3. "Oh __________."
  4. 5. the best brewed cider
  5. 6. favorite Survivor winner
  6. 7. most dominant sign in my chart
  7. 10. my sun sign
  8. 13. current audio book
  9. 14. a rut you get stuck in like slow moving mud
  10. 17. my lesbian opera super star
  11. 18. tattoo on left arm
  12. 20. a constant state of mind
  13. 22. an image I hold that somehow makes me happy
  14. 24. second diagnosis
  15. 25. the dancing clown
  16. 26. the best type of tea
  17. 28. reoccurring nightmare
  18. 29. sheets of rain pounding down on the compacted grey coast sand, a tree resting gingerly between two cliffsides
  19. 32. the color of your dress the night you won Prom Queen and felt really weird about it
  20. 33. commonly used phrase uttered 10-15 times a day
  21. 37. i think of it often
  22. 39. the man called my father
  23. 41. the color of my vibrator